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Jan. 12th, 2014 05:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
alt_harryHey. So I guess you probably know pretty much everything we do. About the pins, and who has them, and what they're for. And what I'm supposed to do, which is send off reports and things about how people are doing.
He sent me a letter he'd written himself. Which he doesn't do. It was really short, and didn't say much -- just that I'd be judging people, and I'd be his eyes and ears, and it was my job to make sure that the best of the best got chosen, but he wrote it, so I guess this is really important to him. And it's sort of
I know it's not a good thing, exactly, but you know. It's an opportunity. I'm trying to think about it that way. And I'm not sure if I can make up rules. Or who the other judges will be. Or how much I can play favourites. They might want me to be unfair. Who knows.
Anyways.
Things are sort of tense around here. Especially in Slytherin. Everyone's eying everyone else, and someone's made a betting list with odds on it, and I'm trying to sort out ways to keep Vince and Greg from trying to do something they'd think would be clever, like messing with Draco in his sleep, or cornering Zach Smith in the loo and beating him up.
And Katie isn't happy about being on the list. At all. We didn't get much time to talk about it really. But she's really scared. And worried about her family. And angry. And I don't know how angry she is with me, but I think she is, even though she didn't say a lot about it, because it's my fault she's in the running. And there's some stuff I just can't tell her, and it's hard, and all I could really do is say that it was going to be okay, and she didn't have to want to be on the council, and we could work out a plan or something. Which sounds really stupid.
He sent me a letter he'd written himself. Which he doesn't do. It was really short, and didn't say much -- just that I'd be judging people, and I'd be his eyes and ears, and it was my job to make sure that the best of the best got chosen, but he wrote it, so I guess this is really important to him. And it's sort of
I know it's not a good thing, exactly, but you know. It's an opportunity. I'm trying to think about it that way. And I'm not sure if I can make up rules. Or who the other judges will be. Or how much I can play favourites. They might want me to be unfair. Who knows.
Anyways.
Things are sort of tense around here. Especially in Slytherin. Everyone's eying everyone else, and someone's made a betting list with odds on it, and I'm trying to sort out ways to keep Vince and Greg from trying to do something they'd think would be clever, like messing with Draco in his sleep, or cornering Zach Smith in the loo and beating him up.
And Katie isn't happy about being on the list. At all. We didn't get much time to talk about it really. But she's really scared. And worried about her family. And angry. And I don't know how angry she is with me, but I think she is, even though she didn't say a lot about it, because it's my fault she's in the running. And there's some stuff I just can't tell her, and it's hard, and all I could really do is say that it was going to be okay, and she didn't have to want to be on the council, and we could work out a plan or something. Which sounds really stupid.
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Date: 2014-01-13 06:01 am (UTC)There's not much you can do about Katie except continue to show her you care. If you lot are working together on the outcomes then perhaps the others can help provide cover for her, too, so she's not bearing the brunt of this on her own. Does she come to your Galleon meetings?
As for your part in it, it's definitely an opportunity of sorts. You've all sorts of options. Primarily I think the best route is to help ensure that anyone who makes it to the top is someone we want there, for whatever reason. The alternative is to make sure that everyone apart from Draco is so naff that Voldemort changes his mind. Now, I don't think you'll manage that without making it clear you're not playing along - at least, to a degree - but it might be work the risk.
Harry, you can exert your influence to keep things turning murderous. I don't know what other 'judges' are supposed to be evaluating the contests but you can certainly take the lead by downgrading those who are too ruthless. You can also get a little of your own back, if anyone goes too far. No one's going to stop you deciding that someone played foul and you're taking it out of their hide as a result.
I know it's a shite position to be in, kid, but you can do it. Don't worry so much about what he's going to do. Play your game, not his.
You know that everyone in the Order has your back, Harry. Everyone.
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Date: 2014-01-13 06:15 am (UTC)It's just sort of hard to know what to say sometimes without just saying everything. You know?
We've talked about how if it looked like we were serious about each other it might get to be too much, you know, too much attention, too many expectations, and now it's all of that stuff even though we've tried to keep it simple, and
I wantI reallyI really care about her. About keeping her safe. And it's my fault she's in this mess.I think it might be a good idea to let her know that the other Galleon holders have her back, though. That might help. If she knows we're all working towards a goal. And maybe I could convince Pans to talk to her about failing gracefully. (That's what she's been calling it, anyways.)
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Date: 2014-01-13 06:26 am (UTC)But I figure if people step out of line in the council, they end up dead, don't they?
So I can have high standards.