Private Message to Granger

[alt_harry]

So.

I know you've got

you know

people. And you talk. And you're friends. And that's okay. It's good. I think it's a good thing that you have things that you... you know, that you keep yours.

I just

Look. Okay. How much does Finch-Fletchley know about me? Because he sort of has to know about why Sinbad was coming. And I guess if I know about him and Sinbad it's okay he knows something about me, but it's not like I decided to tell him or anything and I guess I sort of want to know how much your friends he knows and I don't want you to think you can't talk about things or anything but

yeah.

Pans says he's worth knowing. And I guess we've got some things in common I didn't know before. So there's that.

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[alt_harry]

I wasn't that jealous. I don't guess. Maybe. It was just sort of weird. Because there are people I know I can tell things too, and trust, really trust, and he wasn't one of them.

And Hydra

I've told some things to her, I guess, I mean, she knows a lot more about me than some people, but it's not like I would've thought

so it just sort of was weird. That's all.

[alt_hermione]

Yes, I know it's got to be a shock, learning what other people know or don't know or believe or don't believe but I think part of the problem is that you can't do the things you're meant to do all by yourself, alone.

[alt_harry]

I'm the one that has to

you know.

And I'm just

I'm just me.

And you and Draco and other people at school, I mean, look at us. What could we ever do that would really matter? Maybe in like twenty years. Maybe. When we're stronger. And have charge of things.

it just seems like too much sometimes.

[alt_hermione]

But you don't have to do it alone. And you can't, anyway, because it is too big for just one person, Harry.

Look at what you've already done. You saved Hydra. You saved Sinbad, too, and the others that night (Mr Mac and Mr Moony and Mr S, I mean). And Pansy and Draco. You've already defied V once. I know you can do it and we can figure out how.

And remember what Professor B has told you, too.

Besides, it's not like there's a specific time and place like an Arithmantic exercise. Maybe it isn't supposed to happen until you're stronger and older.

[alt_harry]

Okay.

Mr Moony. Good one. I'd forgotten about him.

You're right. There's more than just us. It just seems sort of mad sometimes that lots of people think I'm such an important part of whatever's going to happen. That's all.

We have done a lot, when you put it like that.

I guess I didn't think about it as defying. But you're right. Like what the thing says my mum and dad did.

And I've got you. To help me sort out how. Because I'm definitely not going to be able to do that on my own, and you're brilliant.

[alt_hermione]

We'll all sort it out.

How was the butterbeer with Katie?

[alt_harry]

It was nice.

She was nice.

It was... normal. In a really good way, I mean.

[alt_harry]

While we're talking about what people believe and don't believe.

If it's okay, I mean.

Can you tell me anything about Longbottom?

Because his mum and dad are in the picture. Right by mine. And Sinbad. And I guess I didn't really know that they were all in it together. Because people talk all the time about his parents, and Sinbad, and what they did, but I don't guess I knew that mine did that sort of stuff too. Not really.

[alt_hermione]

Yes but probably not here, just in case?

He's also good to trust.

[alt_harry]

Draco doesn't.

At all.

But I guess things are sort of different now than they were two years ago. In terms of what we've sorted out that needs doing.

I don't think he still knows what to think about that bit though.

[alt_hermione]

Well. Longbottom and Draco both tend to see things in very stark terms of black and white, even when they know it's not that simple, and I think they both have ideas about the way the world is--and where each other fits into that world--that might not be as true as they think. But sometimes Nev L can be really opinionated about what's right and what's wrong, and that can rub people the wrong way, particularly when what he's saying is morally wrong is also the thing that's probably the best option. (And if you think about it Draco can be almost the exact opposite sometimes, so I can see why they'd misunderstand each other a lot. But I think if they looked beyond each other's parents they'd be better off.)

[alt_harry]

Still. Good to know.