By the way, you probably didn't see this, but I know where the plate is, now. Dolohov has it.
I hinted I wanted it back. He said maybe eventually, like if I move out of Buckingham and get a place of my own. I don't know whether to push, and tell him I want to borrow it. Or if that'll just make it harder to get it back. I mean, we could just wait until summer. I don't know if He'll let me get my own flat, though, it doesn't seem very likely.
I mean, you could demand that he give you the plate, but then he's probably going to get all curious about why you want it so badly.
I don't know, by this summer maybe you should just declare yourself leader of the resistance at large and leave Buckingham behind for good. We can always think of another way to get the plate.
What, you mean stealing it from Dolohov? That would be hard. I mean, if you'd needed to steal the cup from Gringott's and the goblins hadn't wanted to let you in, do you think you could have done it?
I mean, what's he want it for? Probably wants to keep an eye on it, but it's got no other value or use beyond that (that he knows of). Tell him you need it for something, and make it more important than just for "safe-keeping." And no, I don't know what, off the top of my head. But could be something to brainstorm with the others about.
I think he wants to keep it safe, and he doesn't think I can. I'm wondering if I should ask him if I can borrow it, but I don't know what I'll say if he asks why.
Asking everyone else is a good idea.
Is there going to be a meeting? I was thinking I would sneak out and try to go.
He wanted me to show off, sort of. He had me show him the most difficult spells I'd learned. And then he acted pleased. He had me come close to him and I don't want to say that he hugged me because hugs aren't anything like that. But he sort of patted me and ran his hands over my arms like he was trying to be affectionate.
When I was a lot younger I might have liked it. It might have made me think I'd finally managed to really please Him.
I mean, I've always said that he must have some plan for you, and this only further confirms that. Use you in some ritual where you need to be as physically pristine as can be, perhaps? It's fully possible he's stumbled on some kind of ancient magic even more abhorrent than horcruxes, but he almost certainly hasn't told anyone about it.
Maybe if you make it clear that you fear the LP might be making plans to ritualistically murder you. I still haven't forgotten Dolohov's creepy prayer - or whatever it was - that he wrote to me after I "died."
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Date: 2015-04-16 05:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-04-16 05:26 pm (UTC)It went well.
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Date: 2015-04-16 05:27 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-04-16 05:29 pm (UTC)I hinted I wanted it back. He said maybe eventually, like if I move out of Buckingham and get a place of my own. I don't know whether to push, and tell him I want to borrow it. Or if that'll just make it harder to get it back. I mean, we could just wait until summer. I don't know if He'll let me get my own flat, though, it doesn't seem very likely.
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Date: 2015-04-16 07:37 pm (UTC)I don't know, by this summer maybe you should just declare yourself leader of the resistance at large and leave Buckingham behind for good. We can always think of another way to get the plate.
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Date: 2015-04-16 07:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-04-16 08:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-04-16 08:05 pm (UTC)Asking everyone else is a good idea.
Is there going to be a meeting? I was thinking I would sneak out and try to go.
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Date: 2015-04-16 08:06 pm (UTC)It was -- I don't know. He didn't try to legilimise me, but
It was weird.
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Date: 2015-04-16 08:25 pm (UTC)What was so weird about it? Don't tell me he was nice. Or normal. After yesterday I don't think I can take anymore shocking moments of disbelief.
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Date: 2015-04-16 08:42 pm (UTC)When I was a lot younger I might have liked it. It might have made me think I'd finally managed to really please Him.
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Date: 2015-04-16 08:43 pm (UTC)And also not like that at all.
I don't know what he was after.
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Date: 2015-04-16 08:48 pm (UTC)He said that cruciatus damages the brain. He didn't mean it scars you emotionally, he meant it actually creates damage.
And he wanted me to be 'unblemished.'
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Date: 2015-04-16 08:55 pm (UTC)I'm not sure I should tell you where my imagination is headed with this.
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Date: 2015-04-16 09:02 pm (UTC)That would have been awful. But at least it would have been a straightforward sort of awful.
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Date: 2015-04-16 09:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-04-16 09:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-04-16 09:14 pm (UTC)That's exactly what I'm worried about. That's exactly -- I mean, that's what it felt like, when he was looking at me.
I don't know how to find out. Or who'd know. And who'd tell me.
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Date: 2015-04-16 11:01 pm (UTC)No clue who that person would be, though, and they'd probably not be one of ours.
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Date: 2015-04-16 11:05 pm (UTC)And if he'd tell me what he found out.
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Date: 2015-04-16 11:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-04-17 02:16 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-04-17 03:11 am (UTC)