I Solemnly Swear That I Am Up To No Good
Jun. 2nd, 2013 01:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Sally-Anne, you okay? Hydra? Justin?
I've been thinking.
And I just wanted to say
Mrs Longbottom and Mr Lupin were right.
I made a bad call. We should've tried harder to get someone at the party to listen, or written them to tell them what was going on. We got lucky, but like Mrs Longbottom said, luck isn't a good substitute for competence. We were lucky that Professor Dolohov removed those curses, and that they stopped when they did. We were lucky that they weren't trying to kill us, just keep us pinned down. And if Arista hadn't had the Felix, it's hard to tell, but it probably would've been a lot worse. And next time around we won't have that.
This is my responsibility. This is my fault, and I'm sorry.
I guess we ought to do a post thing. At least that's what I've been thinking about all morning.
We got Arista and Hector, and we all got out of there alive. Which are all good things. And trying to help Arista and Hector was the right thing to do. The way we did it could've been better.
We didn't know Professor Dolohov and Mr Crouch would come down there like they did. But I think we overestimated how prepared we were for that kind of fight if we were going to run into other people. We're good. The best in our class. Just not good enough yet. And I think that's what got us. Why we thought we could do it on our own. But the reason we succeeded wasn't because of anything we were doing, we succeeded because they decided to stop.
Splitting up was a bad idea. I think. Maybe fighting in a larger group we could've done more, but then they might've got more serious about trying to kill us instead of picking us off one by one. I'm not sure. The Department of Mysteries was confusing with the doors and things, and I think that threw us more than it should've too.
No matter what, though, we need to work harder. Lots. This isn't OWLs, or Umbridge. We've got to be better prepared next time.
Even though they were pretty angry about everything, I think they're still planning on letting us in. The Order I mean. For the people who want it. They would've said if they were reconsidering. But we're going to have to work harder with that too. To show them that we can be depended on. And that we can learn from our mistakes, and sort out when we need to ask someone else for help. And not try to do everything. We've done a lot of good things. And I think everyone on this is really brave, and brilliant, and I'm glad none of you died. And Cedric and Katie and Linus did a good job too.
Anyways. Maybe we could meet and talk about it?
And about the other thing too. The ceremony.
I've been thinking.
And I just wanted to say
Mrs Longbottom and Mr Lupin were right.
I made a bad call. We should've tried harder to get someone at the party to listen, or written them to tell them what was going on. We got lucky, but like Mrs Longbottom said, luck isn't a good substitute for competence. We were lucky that Professor Dolohov removed those curses, and that they stopped when they did. We were lucky that they weren't trying to kill us, just keep us pinned down. And if Arista hadn't had the Felix, it's hard to tell, but it probably would've been a lot worse. And next time around we won't have that.
This is my responsibility. This is my fault, and I'm sorry.
I guess we ought to do a post thing. At least that's what I've been thinking about all morning.
We got Arista and Hector, and we all got out of there alive. Which are all good things. And trying to help Arista and Hector was the right thing to do. The way we did it could've been better.
We didn't know Professor Dolohov and Mr Crouch would come down there like they did. But I think we overestimated how prepared we were for that kind of fight if we were going to run into other people. We're good. The best in our class. Just not good enough yet. And I think that's what got us. Why we thought we could do it on our own. But the reason we succeeded wasn't because of anything we were doing, we succeeded because they decided to stop.
Splitting up was a bad idea. I think. Maybe fighting in a larger group we could've done more, but then they might've got more serious about trying to kill us instead of picking us off one by one. I'm not sure. The Department of Mysteries was confusing with the doors and things, and I think that threw us more than it should've too.
No matter what, though, we need to work harder. Lots. This isn't OWLs, or Umbridge. We've got to be better prepared next time.
Even though they were pretty angry about everything, I think they're still planning on letting us in. The Order I mean. For the people who want it. They would've said if they were reconsidering. But we're going to have to work harder with that too. To show them that we can be depended on. And that we can learn from our mistakes, and sort out when we need to ask someone else for help. And not try to do everything. We've done a lot of good things. And I think everyone on this is really brave, and brilliant, and I'm glad none of you died. And Cedric and Katie and Linus did a good job too.
Anyways. Maybe we could meet and talk about it?
And about the other thing too. The ceremony.
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Date: 2013-06-02 07:55 pm (UTC)So.
I don't think there's much point in that particular what if.
Also, Harry, don't be an idiot. I am not your responsibility. I'm your friend. There's a difference.
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Date: 2013-06-02 08:57 pm (UTC)I was there because Arista needed help. Not because you did anything at all. I mean, I'm glad you were there, but I'd have gone anyway, even if you hadn't.
And about that luck potion... see, I think if it would all have gone better if we'd got adults to go with us, then we'd have been able to find them when we tried. And if it would have turned out better if the adults had been there to fight, then the potion would've made it turn out that way.
But think about it. When we got there, Mrs Selwyn was connected to that whatever it was you broke, and Arista said they were using it on her mum first because they needed to adjust the magic to her first. And then they were going to start on Arista next, and then Hector. And they were doing it last night. But where were they? The people who were doing it? Gone. To do what? Smoke a pipe? Have a cuppa? They weren't there because Arista drank luck. And we came. Not the Order.
Think about that.
And then, see, I think about what could've happened if they had come with us. Or instead of us.
For one thing, it would've taken too long. I mean, none of them could have left the wedding and not be noticed like we did. Bill couldn't. And we couldn't even find Madam Pomfrey or Professor Sprout to let them know. And where were the others? They were off wheverever they said, having a meeting. They were busy when we left, and what if they hadn't seen a message even if we'd sent one?
Anywiz, whatever. Even if they'd got there just as quickly as we did, what would have happened when Dolohov and Crouch turned up? They'd have all fought, and they'd've all used worse spells on each other. And Crouch and Dolohov would've called in MLE, who were all just right across the building. It would've taken no time. And then the Longbottoms, and Mr Shacklebolt, and Mr Lupin, and Sirius Black, and Miss Tonks, and whoever all'd come, they'd all've been dead or arrested or on the run. And Arista might've been dead. Hector, too.
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Date: 2013-06-02 09:33 pm (UTC)(Except for Sirius Black but I think maybe the rest of them sit on him sometimes.)
I mean they wanted to get Terry away from Carrow and they didn't because they couldn't arrange things as perfectly as they thought they needed to. And then Carrow put Fidelius on Lincoln Castle and after that they couldn't. For ages.
It's not that they're not good people but maybe there really is a reason that WE were the ones who were needed last night.
And none of us died, not even me.
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Date: 2013-06-02 09:41 pm (UTC)Probably first it might be good to figure out how to keep him from coming back again, though.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:52 am (UTC)I'll have to think on that some more.
I mean, I'm not going to just trust that it'll happen if I sit back and wait for it, you know?
But yeah, like Evs said. If it can be done, it can be undone.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:57 am (UTC)Maybe.
I wonder if Mrs Longbottom will buy that we didn't write them because of the Felix?
It's worth a try.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:59 am (UTC)Because we will, probably. Right? I mean we TRIED this time, after all.
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Date: 2013-06-02 10:15 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-06-02 10:26 pm (UTC)Yeah, I won't argue with you about needing to prepare more. We've got CCF coming up, and then we need to not fluff off the rest of the summer.
I reckon the Order are going to be more keen on being sure we get the training we need. After last night. So that's a good thing about it, too.
If you squint.
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Date: 2013-06-03 01:05 am (UTC)I'm much better, thank you, though in truth, nothing of consequence happened to me, not compared to our Sally-Anne or Hermione, what.
(Though I don't mind saying going to sleep was--quite difficult last night. Trusting that closing one's eyes would be all right, if you follow me.)
But see here, old man, you mustn't think you led us into anything we weren't willing to do. I say, it's part of why we started using the Galleon for Defence practice, what. It's part of why we'll continue to prepare ourselves to fight, when we must do.
We were all bally well lucky, but that just means we've a better idea than we ever had before of what we need to learn and practice.
-Justin
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Date: 2013-06-03 02:30 am (UTC)I dunno--I probably would have been more useful running interference for you all back at the wedding. Although it sounds like Moon and Diggory and Katie Bell did a fine job of that on their own.
But more than that, I'm just kicking myself that I was playing chess with Evelyn last night and didn't look at my journal once. I could have passed the word onto the Order! I could have let Fred or George or Lee know, and they could have sent the message along.
Ron's right, though, too--if they had known, they probably would have come charging in, and lots more people would have been hurt. Or even died.
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Date: 2013-06-03 02:40 am (UTC)Because HOW OFTEN do you go for an entire evening not looking in your journal once, Neville? Maybe you didn't because we were REALLY LUCKY NOT TO HAVE THE ORDER THERE.
I mean not that we should make 'obviously we're better off without them' an assumption going forward. But.
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Date: 2013-06-03 02:42 am (UTC)I wonder exactly how far the influence of Felix Felicis spreads? Because I could have passed word along, too, but I just happened to spend yesterday afternoon and evening as the Professor, and dogs don't read journals. It felt like just a whim, to stay in my animagus form for several hours. Was it Arista taking the potion, hundreds of miles away, that nudged me into transforming?
I guess I'll meet her and her brother soon. I hope they like it here. We'll do all we can to make them feel at home as quickly as possible, although of course, it's going to be hard for them.
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Date: 2013-06-03 02:47 am (UTC)AND they're being sent to live with people they've grown up thinking were the enemy.
At least there are a lot of other children there, right?
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Date: 2013-06-03 02:58 am (UTC)Sarah Fawcett said she'd look out for them...after all, she's in sort of the closest situation. Many of the kids here were rescued by the Order when they were babies and toddlers, and don't really know anything different, but Sarah grew up in the Protectorate and then had to give up everything about the life she knew to come here.
Mr and Mrs Longbottom are wonderful, and so are all the other teachers. I suppose it'll be easier for Hector, since he's younger, and he won't remember so much about the life he's lost.
Ugh, sounds sort of cold to say it that way. But it's true.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:13 am (UTC)And I felt terrible for not being there, but maybe if I had been I'd have dragged the lot of you down somehow.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:18 am (UTC)I really hope the felix felicis didn't make you ill. That seems unfair, somehow. That one person's good luck would be another person's rotten luck.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:23 am (UTC)I don't know, but either way, I keep trying to tell myself it was for the best. Because I feel awful about not being there to help, but it'd be worse if I'd been there and made a mistake that somehow muffed the whole thing.
How're you feeling? If you're not sick of people asking you.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:26 am (UTC)I hope you feel recovered by tomorrow, at least?
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:35 am (UTC)It would certainly be distracting.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-06-03 03:48 am (UTC)It also makes sense that there's loads more work we have to do, too. And I can see why the Order wouldn't be pleased.
Mum said that, Harry? She must've been furious.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:50 am (UTC)I mean, I think she was angry and relieved sort of at the same time?
But yeah. Your mum
She can be sort of intense sometimes.
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Date: 2013-06-03 02:42 am (UTC)But you're almost as bad as I am. And I'm pretty bad. About checking my journal CONSTANTLY, I mean.
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Date: 2013-06-03 02:46 am (UTC)It was a really good chess game, though.
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Date: 2013-06-03 03:47 am (UTC)Like the best sort of sticky arithmancy problem where you solve a bit and the rest makes sense.