Private Message to Hydra
Mar. 6th, 2012 08:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Hydra
you've got to
let me explain.
I had to practise. Because they're making me punishHer my mudblood. So Raz set it up with Professor Grubbly-Plank so I could work on it with a niffler she had because if I didn't I probably wouldn't be able to do it properly and I'd get in trouble and she'd get punished even more
and that's what you saw.
let me explain.
I had to practise. Because they're making me punish
and that's what you saw.
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:03 am (UTC)Do you have Tevis.
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Hydra
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:04 am (UTC)I know what Tevis looks like, and I'd never do that to him.
Is he missing?
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:10 am (UTC)And then when I saw what you were doing I thought Mummy might have given him to you. So that you could cruciate him.
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Hydra
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:24 am (UTC)I'm sorry.
I'm sorry you had to see that too.
I didn't want to do it, you know.
I don't like it or anything. At all. It makes me sick. Just thinking about it.
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:31 am (UTC)Why is Hermione being punished?
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Hydra
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:42 am (UTC)In the journals. Where everyone could see.
And then there was a lot of talk about how I wasn't keeping her in hand properly, and she wasn't respectful because I wasn't treating her like I ought, and so they decided that the best way to take care of it would be if I punished her myself.
For calling me Harry.
By cruciating her.
They gave me til March to do it, because they didn't want it to interfere with the Second Task preparation. But now I'm done with that.
And that didn't go well.
So it's not like I can get out of it or anything.
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Date: 2012-03-07 02:52 am (UTC)I should stop calling her Hermione in writing.What will they do to her if you don't cruciate her, though? Do you know?
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Hydra
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:00 am (UTC)They might take her away. Or do something worse.
After what happened after the second task, I don't want to find out.
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:09 am (UTC)They might do that anyway. They can do whatever they want, whenever they want.
It isn't safe to care about anything,
but I just can't help it and I do.
I hate it. I think you must, too.
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Hydra
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:17 am (UTC)I do.
And just because it isn't safe doesn't mean I'm going to stop caring either.
Even if they want me to.
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:24 am (UTC)I don't know what to say now. I feel like...
I don't know.
Will
weyou be all right?From,
Hydra
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:26 am (UTC)Yeah.
You?
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:34 am (UTC)But sometimes I think no one should have that kind of power. No one does anything good with it. That's why I want to learn occlumency.
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:38 am (UTC)Maybe Raz knows. Without, you know, having to ask.
Occlumency would be better than legilimency, yeah. Because you're protecting what's yours. Instead of taking something from someone.
And sometimes I don't want to know what people really think.
That would be really dangerous.
And wrong.
If you think Tevis is here, we can go looking for him tomorrow. If you want.
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:49 am (UTC)Yes, that's exactly it about occlumency. It's protection.
Uncle Raz is trying to teach me, as best he can. It's not exact since he's not a legilimens, but he says there's still techniques I can practise.
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Hydra
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:54 am (UTC)And that's sort of ace. You know, actually trying to learn it and all.
Let me know how it goes, yeah?
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Date: 2012-03-07 03:56 am (UTC)Yes, I can let you know. Maybe he can try to teach you, too, if you decide it's what you want.
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Hydra
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Date: 2012-03-07 04:02 am (UTC)And I do know how that feels.
Especially lately.
And you've got a point. If you want to look, just to see, we can.