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I'm really sorry.

I know this is has been a rough time for everybody already, and

anyways.

I got the letter at dinner that your tutors came through. So you'll be meeting with them first thing tomorrow to set your schedules and things.

I know it isn't a lot, but maybe it'll help.

We've been talking.

I'm feeling pretty confident on everything except defense. Steve could use that as well and he wouldn't mind a little more Potions but otherwise he's beginning to believe he can do it.

We think there's others who need more, though. I mean, if there's not enough to go round.

If all you need is a little extra work in defence and potions, maybe you only use them for an hour a day or something and share them with someone else.

Whoever you think might need a hand, yeah?

I'll make sure the paperwork goes through for whoever else they're helping. Just let me know names.

And he can. I know he can. And you'll do fine too. I just figured with everything that's been getting in the way, it couldn't hurt to have more time to practise.

I've just got notice that your tutors were certified, and it's all been sorted for them to start working with you.

You can meet them first thing tomorrow morning to sort out schedules. I hope you'll get some good use out of them.

Hello.

Are you back from the Infirmary?

I hope you're feeling okay.

Oh. Yes I'm back. Madam Umbridge wanted me and Healer Kerr said I was just taking up space anyway and am well enough. So I've been putting Madam Umbridge's files back together. MLE left them on the floor. All of them. And it looked like somebody used a stirring charm on them like the one we use in Potions. So it took me a while. But it's done now. ~~But I'm not feeling okay.~~

Harry?

Yeah?

Is it true?

Is Sarah
is sarah dead?
~~please don't let her be dead~~

I don't know. It's hard to tell for sure.

I mean, all they know is they can't find her, right?

And.

It's

It's hard to know sometimes when you do something how it'll turn out. And sometimes you look back on it and think about all the things you could've done different. But at the time, you didn't know. And if you did, you would've taken it back.

And that's okay.

Like in the Triwizard cup, when we were in the second task, I tried to save Fleur, because she looked really bad off, and I wasn't thinking that someone else would take care of her. And because I went for her instead of the Oroboros, like I was supposed to, I

I made my Father really angry. And that wasn't good.

And I felt really awful about what happened after, because it was my fault, because I made him so angry. And I wish I could take it back, and that I did something different.

But I didn't know. I was just doing what I thought was right.

Um.

Anyways.

I'm glad you're not in the Infirmary any more.

But if Sarah ran away because Madam Umbridge was so angry then it is my fault because I made Madam Umbridge so angry earlier in the day.

please don't let her be dead
please don't let her be dead
please don't let her be dead

She shouldn't have run away! But she probably didn't know how to calm Madam Umbridge down. It's important to always do the right thing because then she doesn't get so angry. But sometimes she's already angry ~~and then nothing helps~~ and then you just have to wait. And if you're really quiet she doesn't hurt you so much. So that helps. But Sarah didn't know that and she must have got scared and run. ~~it's always worse if you run~~ And that doesn't help. Sometimes nothing helps.

Does your Father get angry a lot?

~~maybe if you were really quiet he wouldn't~~

Yes.

He does.

No matter what I do.

I think maybe she was thinking that what happened to Sophie Fleet would happen to her. Which is why she ran.

WHY DID SHE EVEN TRY TO GIVE ME THAT POTION IN THE FIRST PLACE. I THOUGHT SOMEBODY WAS TRYING TO TRAP ME. AND THEN I THOUGHT IT WAS A TEST.

Because everything is a test. A test of our willingness to serve. Madam Umbridge says. To bring out our best selves.

Do you think everything is a test?

I tried my Patronus again. After we talked because you said it wasn't against the rules to practice it by myself. It doesn't work any more. I think it's broken.

~~i don't have a best self~~

You could try thinking more about the day at the zoo, and what it was like. Like we were talking about in the Infirmary.

Maybe.

And why you were happy when you made the memory.

I know we talked about it but

I can't make the happy stay.

Yeah.

Well.

Hogwarts isn't a really happy place these days, is it?

Maybe she just wanted to help. Because she thought you needed it more than she needed to follow the rules. Even though it meant she might get her wand snapped.

I think some people like to test us.

But we have a choice about what we're going to do about it.

I WISH SHE NEVER HAD.

~~I told Susan she should leave me alone too~~

People just get hurt when they try.

You should be careful too. She won't like you writing privately to me.

~~I don't care what she~~

Okay.

I'll try to be more careful.

Night, Megan.

Hey, Milli.

I found a tutor for you.

You can meet up with her tomorrow morning and schedule your hours.

I hope it's helpful.

Hey, Katrina.

I sorted out a tutor for you. You can meet them tomorrow morning and sort out schedules and things.

I know it's a bit last minute, but maybe it'll help.

Thank you, Marvolo. It's been a very hard day, and a lot of people in the Common Room are quite sad about it. But we appreciate your kind words.

Thank you, Mr Marvolo. Your kind thoughts are appreciated by all of us, I am certain. We must all pull together in this difficult time.

I've been reading stories to ~~everyone~~ a few of the firsties. It seems to be a comfort, or at least a distraction.

Good to hear.

And let the rest of us know if there's anything we can do, yeah?

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